....not all surprises are good.
It did strike me as a little strange that she seemed so eager to see me but I wasn't expecting that at all. I have always kinda prepared myself for certain conversations for well, emergency purposes as we all know how well I don't deal with situations that require a genuine emotional response; thus I like to have some sort of prepared reply tucked away in my mind somewhere, if for no other reason than to ensure that I don't have nothing to say.
Well, I had nothing to say.
I think it was more that I know there's nothing for me to say that she didn't know already and she wasn't very forthcoming either when it came to it so I was not even entirely sure what she wanted from me at that moment in time. It was clear that she wanted to say something but didn't know how. She wanted someone to listen but she couldn't articulate the words so what was there for me to do?
I am still a little in shock.
Of all of the people I know, she had always been the one that figured knew what was what and that she, knowing her own mind, would be pretty quick to make decisions. What I hadn't accounted for was how difficult she finds it to go into motion about those things she knows.
I am left wondering what I can do.
I can't make her take the first step so isn't a kick that she needs.
She doesn't need me to tell her what to do.
Maybe she just needed to know that I am still here?
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