...not the six legged variety...

I can't shake this uneasy feeling that I've had since Monday.

Not much was said so I have a feeling that whatever was said, was very considered and deliberate. If that is the case then what did I hear?

A feeling of being trapped.
A little afraid.

Neither of those are good things by themselves but together doesn't paint a very nice picture. I'm still not sure what kind of conclusion I can draw from that. The last thing I want to do is mis-interpret what was said, especially when there was so little.

I think my biggest fear is that they do exactly what they said they tend to do, that is nothing and to just sweep things under the proverbial rug and carry on. If I'm being honest, it sounds like a little of that is going on now, as it apparently already has before.

Right now though, I'm trying to figure out what I want.
Is it that I want them to say something specific, to make a certain choice and to make a start along that road? Or do I just want them to start to talk more, to be more open, to say what they are thinking and thus acknowledge it and have someone else reinforce/support/confirm those thoughts?

At the moment, I am not even an observer, just a sounding wall of sorts and well, not much has been sounded. I don't rule out that maybe I wasn't listening properly and didn't hear the words that were said.

We shall see.